CONfused?

Yesterday it seems like a dream...TOTAL dream....before it was a rough winding hard painful days and today? happy and vibe..

But deep down....you still have that FEELING?..you know once hurt considered broken?..i just feel CONFUSED right now...i want to love and be happy and at the same time i know..REALITY will always hit me hard back....REALITY is still there lingering around ...MEMORIES will always be there..good or bad....

I just want things to be NORMAL.....NORMAL as it is....thats all i ask...nothing more....

Deep down i really want to love cheerish and be at the side of the ONE..but somehow i dont want to let the ONE feel sad and down and just could not do anything. I rather give my HAPPINESS to the ONE then see the ONE in that state..evry inch of sadness in the ONE i will replaced it with HAPPINESS..

WAs it a MISTAKe that day?

I just dont know...why that day EVERYTHING just comes out...it was so......not words to describe it....and now?.....i just dont know......i am so confused...and divided...

BUT

 one thing for sure....i LOVE THE ONE...sound funny after what happen but are you willing to let go of something that was with you for a long time. Oh well we wait and see...

Funny right?

Now...i just want it be like BEFORE...i pray it will come true....

Lord help me....